Posts tagged stress
Shhh…
Sep 30th
Ryan and I have an ultrasound coming up on Monday, where we will hopefully find out the sex of this little baby. I am beyond excited for this, and yet a little scared about what it means. I don’t know anything about being a parent, other than what I read. And I’m pretty sure any parent will tell you (or me) that reading is not at all the same. Time seems to be flying by…it’s already October 1st tomorrow, and in just a few weeks we are going on vacation, and then it will be Thanksgiving, and then Christmas and then it’s already January and the baby comes in February! And we aren’t ready. We don’t have most of the stuff that we’ll need (like a place for the baby to sleep), and the one thing we already have isn’t put together (the dresser for the baby’s room). Although hopefully that will be remedied by this weekend.
I know, logically, that we have plenty of time, and that it will all come together and be fine. But there’s a difference between “knowing” something logically will be ok, and feeling ok about it. You know? Plus, I like to have things done. And it seems like there is so much we can’t do yet. We have been offered a lot of hand-me-down items from my sisters, which is great. But we won’t have them at our place until Thanksgiving, which seems like it is so far away. And since I don’t know what exactly is included in the list or what they look like it’s hard to get my head around decorating.
I guess I am just feeling a little overwhelmed today. Don’t get me wrong – I am actually really enjoying pregnancy. I feel really good most of the time, and I’ve been very lucky to not experience some of the more miserable parts of pregnancy that many women go through. And now that my belly finally popped a little I actually look pregnant instead of looking like I don’t go to the gym often enough (well, I probably still look like that – who am I kidding). I just wish there was more I could do or already had done.
Ugh. I’m sure I’ll feel better later on today. I think Ryan and I are going on a movie date tonight (I got a gift certificate to the local theater for my birthday from my coworkers). That will definitely cheer me up. Now if we can only decide on a movie!
Stress
Sep 4th
Work has me stressed this week. Not so much the volume of it or what I’m doing in particular, but more the co-workers part of it. I can’t really say much, but it sucks. And I don’t know if I should just get over it or actually go talk to the boss. Ever since becoming pregnant I’ve felt a distinct lack of confidence in the ability to tell what are real issues and what are issues that I’m just crabby about because I’m emotional. And the funny thing is that it doesn’t even come up that often, because I HAVEN’T been that emotional. Ask Ryan – I don’t think I’ve been more emotional than usual (which was already admittedly more than some people). I have the occasional breakdown in tears, but for the most part I’ve been pretty happy.
Anyway, that’s what’s on my mind, and it’s making sitting at work all day kind of stressful (although I will say that at least the main source of my stress is out today). Unfortunately, I can’t go home early. But let me tell you; there will be ice cream in my near future.
On a lighter note, Ryan and I need to go home and clean our apartment like Jesus is having a sleepover in it (I want to be a mom like the woman who wrote that note). We are dogsitting this weekend, and puppies shouldn’t eat dust bunnies that are bigger than they are. I’m pretty sure that’s in the manual somewhere.
