Do you ever have times where you think that you must not be very good at your job? Maybe a customer yells at you and hangs up on you, and then out of nowhere (as far as you can tell) another customer suddenly decides to go with another agent with no explanation of why they left. And it’s just the latest in a recent string of accounts either leaving or just closing up shop. On the one hand, I know that most of this is not in my control – what I was being yelled at about wasn’t my fault (seriously), and I can’t help someone stay in business if they want to close. But it’s hard not to take it personally when you spend all day working on accounts and you talk to these people on a regular basis.
I know that I’m just a little overemotional right now, and that’s part of it, but I feel like I must not be doing a good enough job if these people aren’t happy. I must be able to do something better. And yet…I don’t know. Sometimes I don’t know that I see myself here permanently…I like my workplace – the people are great, and I like working downtown. But I don’t know if insurance is what I want to do the rest of my life. But then, I don’t know what else I would do. I know, in theory, that I’m young and that I could do pretty much anything. But anything is too broad of a category for me to choose from. I want someone to just sit me down and tell me what I would be good at, what I would like doing, and how to get started doing that. Any takers? ;-)
Alyson (my college roommate) was here this weekend. We were talking about how we were both in this boat – not happy with our current work status, but not sure what to do about it. She shared something someone else had said to her, and we thought it summed up our work wishes quite well. “I’m not f***ing cut out for customer service.” Give me a job that I don’t have to talk to customers. In fact, I would prefer a job without a phone at all, but I understand that’s not really realistic. So one only other people I work with or other people in my industry call, please. Thanks.
Our thoughts go out to the owners of the businesses in the building that had a fire overnight. One of them was Arthur’s Men’s Formal Wear, who supplied the tuxes for all the guys for our wedding. They were fabulous to work with, much less costly than the other shops we checked, and I hear they are moving to a new location soon up in Piedmont, so if you are in need of formal wear in Duluth, definitely check them out! Especially after something like this, they can use the business!
I realized this morning when I read Shauna’s comment that not everyone who reads this blog is a family member or friend that we talk to on a regular basis. ;-) And so some of you have no idea what our wedding was like or what our honeymoon plans were. As far as what the wedding was like, I don’t really know how to explain, other than to say it was wonderful and direct you herefor pictures. We gave the guests at our wedding the login info, so they can add photos that they took, which is great since I obviously was not carrying a camera around with me all day. ;-)
All of our vendors were fabulous – the Holiday Inn, the Flower Cart, Julia Cheng and her assistant Kourtney, Deacon Tim, and our DJ, Ryan’s cousin Mike. They were all so great! I couldn’t believe how perfect everything was. Our friend Greta loaned us her Volkswagon Bug convertible (Green!) for a ride after the ceremony, so Ryan and I sat on the top of the back seat while our maid of honor and best man drove us down to Canal Park for some pictures. Two of the big ships came through the canal while we were down there, and so I cannot wait to see the photos that Julia got with the ship and the bridge in the background. It was a beautiful, sunny day also – the nicest one we had so far this summer.
As far as our honeymoon goes, Ryan and I went up the North Shore of Lake Superior to Lutsen Resort. We stayed at the lodge for 3 nights – Monday through Thursday. It was great to go up there and relax. We did a lot of hiking on some of the shorter trails that branch out from Highway 61, and the rivers were all completely full of water, which made for some amazing waterfalls (we’ll upload photos to the flickr site soon, I promise!). We also bummed around Grand Marais for a while, and picked up some souvenirs, including a church christmas decoration that Ryan’s aunt and uncle requested we use their wedding gift to purchase. Our first married christmas decoration! Other than that, we just hung out, ate dinner at the lodge and played a lot of cribbage. It was so relaxing and so much fun.
Well, I should get back to work, but I just wanted to give a short but real entry, instead of the stuff you’ve gotten recently – sorry about that!
I was sitting here reading blogs (trying to catch up after a 2 week hiatus), and all of a sudden I heard music…like little kid music. And then an ice cream truck drove by on our street. And we are grilling tonight (YAY for wedding presents!). I *heart* summer.
Also, it will be weird going back to work tomorrow. Just sayin’.
Just saying Hi from the North Shore. The wedding was wonderful and the weather was gorgeous. We can’t wait to see all the pictures.
10 days left. And still so much to do. And we are having people stay at our apartment this weekend and it’s still full of boxes and such (although when Ryan’s desk gets here that will help).
I apologize for the lack of posting lately, but you’ll have to forgive me. Apparently I’m getting married in 10 DAYS!!! And there is a lot of stuff to do to get ready to get married. Especially when moving TAKES OVER YOUR LIFE for like 3 weeks. I’m so over moving it’s not even funny. Thankfully, I think we are done. Ryan has to go back and take down the internet (hahahaha….Ryan is taking down the internet…like it’s a tube that you can take down….shut up. I thought it was funny). And he has to take down the christmas lights that have been attached to our upstairs deck for a year and a half (oops).
Well, it’s time to head to work. Only 3 days left including today. Which would be awesome if I didn’t have SO MUCH WORK to do. And if I knew how to prepare for being gone for 2 weeks. Yikes. Any advice, internets?? I’ve never missed this much work in a row….especially not at a real job that has actual work involved that can’t just be taken over by someone else easily.
If I don’t get back here (although I hope to, but the way things are going…probably not so much), I will talk to you all after I become Mrs. instead of Miss. Yay!
This is my first blog entry from Ryan’s and my new apartment. It is very exciting to be here! We are mostly moved in. There are still a lot of boxes to unpack, but we are definitely living here, and we don’t have much left at the old house. Poor Sam is going to come home to a much less full place. We did tell him we would be moving this weekend, though, so it shouldn’t be too much of a surprise. As you can see, we have our priorities in order – internet before pretty much anything else. It’s nice having a fiance who works for an ISP.
Our new kitchen is pretty small, which will be a challenge. We have room for most of our stuff so far, but we haven’t put any food in it yet really – that should be the biggest challenge. Our old place had a pantry, and while it was small it was very handy for keeping dry stuff. Oh well, we’ll figure it out. :-)
My feet are tired from moving, so I’m sitting on the couch listening to Reel Big Fish (Sell out! With me, oh yah. Sell out! With me tonight.). I’m supposed to be balancing my checkbook though, so I should get around to that before Ryan comes and lectures me. He’s such a slave driver. ;-)
I use that phrase a lot. “It’s all good” can apply in so many situations – something was screwed up and someone fixed it for you and apologized – “It’s all good.” Someone thinks you are worried about something that you aren’t too concerned about – “It’s all good.” How’s life going in general, how’s the wedding planning, any random how are you question – “It’s all good.” I like it because it is short, and usually reflects my actual attitude about things. It may not be perfect, but it is good. :-)
Things are really coming together this week. We moved about a quarter of our belongings last weekend, including some of the big stuff, and we are planning on keeping the moving going during the week and finishing off the rest of the big stuff this weekend. We might have a tiny bit to do after the weekend, but we plan on living in the apartment after this weekend, which is awesome.
I got my maid of honor (Hi, Gwen!) the correct size dress yesterday, so that is taken care of, and while I was in there they had me try on my dress, redid a couple of the bustles that needed to be moved up a little bit, and I got to take that one home too. So they are both hanging in the new apartment, waiting for the wedding to get here.
Today Ryan and I are going to the county office to get our marriage license. I told him that I promised not to break down in hysterics this time…I think I was a little stressed last week when we went, and it just pushed me over the edge. I’m actually just kind of excited to go, and to hopefully get to have lunch with Ryan afterward. Considering we both work downtown and only about a block apart we don’t have lunch together nearly often enough. Darn his job and it’s crazy schedule and location hopping. ;-)
Well, back to work. I’m trying to get ahead, but first I need to do some stuff to just get even. It will all work out. It’s all good.
Ryan and I went to the courthouse today over our lunch break to get our marriage license. I was uber-prepared (unsurprising, I know). I had the whole form filled out except for the one piece of Ryan’s information I wasn’t sure on. I had our pre-marital counselling certificate from the church. I had my checkbook. I even decided on what name I’ll have after we are married (Tawanda. What do you think??). AND I brought a camera to capture our happy faces after getting the license (Shut up. I saw other people’s and it looked like a cute idea). And then, in a matter of seconds, we were shot down. Apparently, the church put my name down as Becky instead of Rebecca on the pre-marital certificate. And because it is the government receiving this very un-official document it must match EXACTLY. I guess I understand. But seriously…is there really a Becky VeryUniqueLastName out there that they think took the class for me??
Anyway, I already called the church lady (who is very nice, by the way, even though she apparently doesn’t realize the importance of using a person’s legal name on certificates going to the County). She is sending us a new certificate, so we should be able to go get 1-step-closer-to-legal next week. I’ll report back sometime after that to let you know how exciting I’m sure it will be. If I figure out how (last time I tried it told me that I wasn’t allowed) I’ll even post a photo of Ryan and I after we get our license. But we’ll see. That would be very ambitious of me at this point. ;-)
I feel as though this might be my theme sentence until about June 8th. This list of things that I need to get done keeps running through my head…call someone about finding a pianist, fold the lilies, figure out what you are going to do for bridesmaid gifts, make sure you get thank you notes written and out to people right away, pack up all of your stuff and move across town, pick out readings and songs, call people we want to do readings and let Uncle Pat know about what song we choose, on and on and on….I know we are a bit behind on some of this stuff, which makes the whole concentrating thing even worse. I now understand why it is that planning a wedding was a full-time occupation for women who didn’t work (and still is in some cases). And I don’t understand how people do it that don’t have the support and help from their significant other. Ryan’s taken on projects just at the right time for me – when I’m about to break down from trying to figure out how I’m going to get it all done.
The thing is, I’m not really stressed in the conventional way. I know the day will be perfect because I know that at the end of it I’ll be married to Ryan. And really, that is the part that matters (it’s ok – you can puke now). And the biggest things are already done. I’m not twitchy about stuff, and I’m not having nightmares that things are going wrong. I just am having a really hard time concentrating on anything other than wedding stuff. And I’m to the point that I’m so overwhelmed with things to do that I don’t know where to start, so I don’t do any of them (just an FYI, this is NOT helpful in finishing them).
So, when I say that I can’t wait until the wedding is over, it’s not at all because things are going badly. They are actually going really well. Things are coming together, and I’m really excited. I am just ready to have my concentration skills back – especially at work. But, we are only a month out, and I’m only working until the end of May, so that’s not so bad. There’s a lot of work to get done between now and then (both for the wedding and at my job), and I know I can get it done. I just need to buckle down. And maybe start drinking more caffinated beverages. ;-)
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