Ryan and I have an ultrasound coming up on Monday, where we will hopefully find out the sex of this little baby. I am beyond excited for this, and yet a little scared about what it means. I don’t know anything about being a parent, other than what I read. And I’m pretty sure any parent will tell you (or me) that reading is not at all the same. Time seems to be flying by…it’s already October 1st tomorrow, and in just a few weeks we are going on vacation, and then it will be Thanksgiving, and then Christmas and then it’s already January and the baby comes in February! And we aren’t ready. We don’t have most of the stuff that we’ll need (like a place for the baby to sleep), and the one thing we already have isn’t put together (the dresser for the baby’s room). Although hopefully that will be remedied by this weekend.

I know, logically, that we have plenty of time, and that it will all come together and be fine. But there’s a difference between “knowing” something logically will be ok, and feeling ok about it. You know? Plus, I like to have things done. And it seems like there is so much we can’t do yet. We have been offered a lot of hand-me-down items from my sisters, which is great. But we won’t have them at our place until Thanksgiving, which seems like it is so far away. And since I don’t know what exactly is included in the list or what they look like it’s hard to get my head around decorating.

I guess I am just feeling a little overwhelmed today. Don’t get me wrong – I am actually really enjoying pregnancy. I feel really good most of the time, and I’ve been very lucky to not experience some of the more miserable parts of pregnancy that many women go through. And now that my belly finally popped a little I actually look pregnant instead of looking like I don’t go to the gym often enough (well, I probably still look like that – who am I kidding). I just wish there was more I could do or already had done.

Ugh. I’m sure I’ll feel better later on today. I think Ryan and I are going on a movie date tonight (I got a gift certificate to the local theater for my birthday from my coworkers). That will definitely cheer me up. Now if we can only decide on a movie!