I feel as though this might be my theme sentence until about June 8th. This list of things that I need to get done keeps running through my head…call someone about finding a pianist, fold the lilies, figure out what you are going to do for bridesmaid gifts, make sure you get thank you notes written and out to people right away, pack up all of your stuff and move across town, pick out readings and songs, call people we want to do readings and let Uncle Pat know about what song we choose, on and on and on….I know we are a bit behind on some of this stuff, which makes the whole concentrating thing even worse. I now understand why it is that planning a wedding was a full-time occupation for women who didn’t work (and still is in some cases). And I don’t understand how people do it that don’t have the support and help from their significant other. Ryan’s taken on projects just at the right time for me – when I’m about to break down from trying to figure out how I’m going to get it all done.

The thing is, I’m not really stressed in the conventional way. I know the day will be perfect because I know that at the end of it I’ll be married to Ryan. And really, that is the part that matters (it’s ok – you can puke now). And the biggest things are already done. I’m not twitchy about stuff, and I’m not having nightmares that things are going wrong. I just am having a really hard time concentrating on anything other than wedding stuff. And I’m to the point that I’m so overwhelmed with things to do that I don’t know where to start, so I don’t do any of them (just an FYI, this is NOT helpful in finishing them).

So, when I say that I can’t wait until the wedding is over, it’s not at all because things are going badly. They are actually going really well. Things are coming together, and I’m really excited. I am just ready to have my concentration skills back – especially at work. But, we are only a month out, and I’m only working until the end of May, so that’s not so bad. There’s a lot of work to get done between now and then (both for the wedding and at my job), and I know I can get it done. I just need to buckle down. And maybe start drinking more caffinated beverages. ;-)