A few questions to answer today, I guess. None of these are really inspiring me (other than wanting to rant about the first one). But I want to post, just to get back in the habit of it.
Day 2: something that’s illegal but you think it should be legal
It’s illegal in Minnesota for people to get married if they happen to be gay. Please vote No in November on the MN Marriage Amendment ballot measure (if you can). For one thing, it’s already illegal. For another, it’s none of the state’s business if it’s 2 men or 2 women or a man and a woman that want to get married. Churches can marry people or not marry them according to their beliefs, but the state should stay the heck out of it. I have strong personal beliefs on the topic, and it hurts my head and my heart to think that MN might take such a huge step backwards in human rights by passing this amendment. Please don’t do it.
Day 3: what you think your reason for being here is
I honestly don’t know. I mean, I’m sure that part of why I’m here has to do with Ryan and James and any future children we might have, but in terms of some kind of deep answer, I really don’t know. I would like to think that I have some kind of a purpose that I don’t know about. Most of the time I feel like I’m just kind of moving along in my life, not making a difference. Not in a depressing way; just in a “There are 7 billion people on the planet. I’m just one of them.” way. I’m average, like almost all of us, you know?
This is not coming across as well as I wanted to. It’s hard to explain. Can we just leave it at “I don’t know”? KThanks.
Day 4: how you think your life would change if you achieved your dream
Well, that would require knowing what my dream is first, wouldn’t it? I’ve struggled with this quite a bit in the last couple years. I don’t know what I want to do “when I grow up.” I have a strong interest in going back to school, but I don’t know what I would want to study, or what I want to do once I’m done with school, and I feel like going without a plan would be a waste of money. I have some vague delusional thoughts that it would be cool to be paid to write, but I can’t even keep up the blog, and I don’t think that I’m a strong enough writer to make a living at it. I guess if it was my job I would devote more time to it (both to making sure the content didn’t suck and to writing on a daily basis). Anyway, that is not a realistic thing (to be paid enough for my writing for it to be a replacement for my job). I guess technically the question didn’t predicate on it being a reasonable dream.
In that case, my dream would be for Ryan and I to win the lottery; enough money to pay off our debts, update our car and buy a house, so that we could afford for me to stay home with James and write, or do whatever we wanted to. My life would be similar to how it is now, except we would have a house big enough to grow into, in the same neighborhood we are in now, and I would get to spend more time with Jame-o. And there would be less worry about money.
So yeah…pretty much the same dream everyone has, right? To win the lottery. ha.
The questions these last few days are all very existential. I’m not a huge fan of that kind of stuff.